Cindy, a Black Widow Spider, and I cohabited a small shed over the last couple months. A couple weeks after I had discovered home in this rustic living space, Cindy knitted her home at the foot of my bed. At first I was a bit creeped out by her vibrant presence: the size of a quarter, jet black, with a perfect red hourglass on her abdomen, she lurked in the crevices of the metal shelter. Before long I began to appreciate her company. Each night I would ceremonially smudge myself and her with an elegant concoction of sacred herbs. I trusted she would stay in her corner and not harm me, just as she trusted me to keep away from her intricate abode.
A few mornings ago, I found Cindy lying dead on the wood that lines the bottom of our shed. I’m not sure how she died. When I came back from two weeks at a SunDance ceremony, I found she had made a new web in a neighbouring location. She looked healthy and had plenty of insect skeletons surrounding her. Whatever the case, I am sad to have her gone. I also know that her presence lives on inside that shed, even though she is building a new home somewhere new. I imagine it is even more amazing than the last two!
I too am about to leave my current home to weave a new web. It has been an intense couple months in Prescott, AZ: studying, playing, practicing ceremony, discovering and growing in spirit. I am very thankful for the experiences I’ve had here and the connections I have made. Yet again, I am leaving a place that I now call home. I am because I feel the call to other places and people- all part of my path and purpose. There is more to learn and experience…with each new home I feel more connected to myself, my communities, the Earth and “spirit.” The love inside me grows stronger and more beautiful with each unique soul I interact with.There are so many pieces, all connected, and I patiently continue to weave them all together. Ceremony, unconditional love and passion allow me to discover their meanings within my heart.
So, I begin to pack my bags. I am taking the parts of this current web that continue to serve me, while letting go of the pieces that are no longer of use. For each and every thread, I have deep gratitude for the ways in which they connect us.